i am TIRED!!!!!!

holy crap, who knew school could be so tiring? it's only the third week of school and i am so wiped that i don't know how i'm going to get through this blog, let alone THIS YEAR! how on earth do seniors do it? i am so stressed out and i have so many things to do for my AP class. i am about to pull my hair out. i have an essay that is due on WED. and i have no clue how i'm going to finish it by then. i also found out today that i have to write my own final for drama because i can't be in my friend's final this year. how am i going to do this? i already want to keel over or just quit...but i can't quit my senior year! all of that work over the past three years for nothing? i don't think so.

the "senior" first day of school

WOW!!!! i can't believe it, but i'm a senior now. i remember my freshman year when i looked at all the seniors and i thought that they were so cool and now that it's me who people look at like that, i feel a little like...woa baby i don't know if i can handle this. soon i'll be applying to schools and then i'll be living in a strange place and then i don't know what'll happen next. is my senior year supposed to feel like this? should i be so afraid to move on? maybe i'm not afraid, i'm just anticipating what's to come. i don't know...i feel like i've been a little lost in the whole "future" category. but it's good to be back. seeing friends that you don't see all summer, meeting new teachers, catching up with old ones, making fun of freshmen trying to find their way around campus...school's great! there are the downsides of the homework aspect of education, but i don't really mind homework. i am excited to learn new things and broaden my horizon-well, at least to how far Covina High School will let me broaden it. i can't wait to get new assignments, read Hamlet, look up new poems, be introduced to new authors and writers, etc., etc. school can be so amazing when you have a good attitude toward it. i may be leaving soon and high school will be over even sooner, but this year will be the best ever and screw all those other people who want to mess it up for me. this is it! this is my senior year! whoo...HERE WE GO!!!!

oh boy is it back

you got that right! it's only been two days and i'm already red! i've been "baking likes a toasted cheeser, it's so hot [there]!" i hate to sweat. i know it's supposed to make you cooler, but i don't feel a difference. i just feel the hot sun on my face being magnetized (if that's the right word) by like a thousand!!! and i can't wipe it off because i my hands are sticky from the stick tape on my drumsticks,my arms are already sweaty and dirty, and then my face and hands get even stickier than before!!!! it is so awful. and then i get baked. oh woe is me. my life sucks right? and my lips are chapped. oh, and not only do i have to put up with my own body malfunctions, i have to deal with the idiots in my section that make my life miserable. there is this one kid who makes it impossible for me to get a word in edgewise. i think it's just because he's mad that i'm his section leader and he thinks that he should be. stupid stupid stupid. i swear i am about to go insane!!! it shouldn't be this hard to be in charge of three other people...oh but it is.

at least i have my friends that make me feel better. my possie (however you spell it) is beginning to dwindle in numbers. well, there were only three of us, but now there are only two. however, two newbies have been added to the invite list. you see, almost all of the kids who are going to be juniors next year dropped out of band and so these two guys who were already sort of our friends need someone to hang out with. it's unofficial, but it's up in the air. i just hope they can make everything better.

it's back!!

i don't know how i feel about it, but band camp starts next week. i get to see my friends and play the drums: that's pretty cool. but i have to stand outside all day in the hot sun plotting the marching and sweating without so much as a water break. i think what i love about band is the friends. it might sound a little geeky, but some of these kids are the coolest!!! then again, some aren't...i won't name names (cough cough). but the kids are way cool and actually playing isn't that bad either. it's when the pressure starts coming to win. but you know what? i am going to do everything in my power to make this the best band season ever!!!!!

ode to the best friggin series in the world

HARRY POTTER!!!!!! seriously, j.k. rowling is a genius for coming up with such goodness for all readers to enjoy. one can only HOPE to create something as amazing as she has. i wish the movies put more information in it, but i guess with books as thick as those, it's hard to put everything in it. however, i enjoy watching the movies. each character has their own specialness and they are cool...first there's harry: sometimes he gets a little pissy and whines, but he's the chosen one i mean, "[he] defeated Voldemort when [he] was a baby, [he] was even awesome when [he] was a baby..."!!! then hermionethe little know-it-all. sometimes (to say it like prof. snape) she is insufferable, but who else is going to figure out how the basilisk is traveling through the school while the chamber of secrets is opened and who else can go back in time??!! then, of course, there's ron...oh ron...he's my favorite. he is so funny! sometimes he can be a little stupid, but nonetheless, you gotta love him. he is the coolest character. fred and george are pretty cool too. they are such twins! if i knew twin boys, that is how i would imagine them to be. finishing...each other's sentences...



HARRY POTTER IS AWESOME!!!!!!!

Pioneer children sang as they walked...

...and walked, and walked, and walked...and WALKED! i have so much more respect for that song now that actually became one of those pioneer children this weekend. our youth conference was a 5-mile pioneer trek that was pretty intensely legit. at first i didn't want to go, but my dad told me i had to...jk i ended up wanting to go. so i was in a family full of people i didn't really know and because of that i met a bunch of new people because i met their friends and then their friends and so on. so the day started off totally great and i was all excited to get started and so my family and i got our little hand cart ready and then i hear people say something like "look out for the mouse" and then i feel something rustle my skirt. so people start looking for the mouse in my direction so i feel around in my skirt and i feel the effing mouse!!!!! i know, so gross right? so i yell out to everyone that the mouse was in my skirt and so my "big brother" garbs my skirt where the mouse was and starts hitting it and then the mouse crawled out and yeah that was really gross. the later i got a lizard up my skirt but that wasn't as near as exciting as the mouse. so after that every little movement of my skirt bugged me. so we started off on our trek and there were these missionaries there and two of the girls in my family started talking about how cute they were and stuff and i was like "oh brother" so i start telling them to stop talking about missionaries like that and they shut up. so were trekking and then we rest and do some fun activities and ten we start up again and we come across this gully that we have to cross. so we had to take all of our stuff out, make an assembly line to take it across, take the hand cart across (that wasn't so easy), and then repack the hand carts. the first one took forever, but after that they were easier to get across. then we got to the camp and that night we had a hoedown. yeah, so legit, right? way better than a dance. so the girls all slept in cots made out of rope and the guys slept in pig pens with hay in them. then in the morning the girls had to do the first little part of the trek by themselves while the guys went off to "war." i sorta wish i got to watch the guys because they had a mock battle...that would've been fun. so we finished the trek and played games, had a speaker and went home. it was a great experience. i don't know that i'd do it again, but i did learn a lot and i would tell anyone who is going on a trek to go!

so...

...i kind of am bored. i know, i'm not supposed to talk about that, but i really am bored. i was thinking about the happiness of summer and i realized that i haven't seen my friends since the day school let out and some of them i have been (according to Anne of Green Gables) "aching to see." i know that's sort of odd, but i have some pretty great friends that i only get to see during the school year. it's sorta funny that the friends i can easily see aren't the ones i've been wanting to see these past few days. maybe i shouldn't think about it. what am i whining for? i don't have school, i can hang out with my sisters as often as i want, but there is still that void of the people you don't see 24/7. maybe we can all go to the beach some day like we said we would but haven't done. i think the only reason why i haven't taken initiative in calling my friends is because i'm afraid of my dad's "eye-roll" he always gives me when i want to hang out with my friends. i don't know why he does it and i don't know why it bothers m so much. i don't hang out with my buddies as often now and it makes me sad. what's wrong with going to the movies with jacquie or going to the beach with julie and katie-maybe a few other buddies? i know it sounds like an exaggeration, but my dad really does roll his eyes whenever i ask to hang out with friends. maybe he doesn't mean to do it. i'm sure sometimes he's only teasing me, but what about all of the other times. he does his "i'll have to think about it" line too. that doesn't bother me as much because that way just have to wait patiently for his decision and he doesn't stare at me. oh well...perhaps it's just as well. if i don't hang out with my friends i don't mind so much because i still have my sisters. still, it's nice to have that little bit of...freedom? is that a good word?