the "senior" first day of school

WOW!!!! i can't believe it, but i'm a senior now. i remember my freshman year when i looked at all the seniors and i thought that they were so cool and now that it's me who people look at like that, i feel a little like...woa baby i don't know if i can handle this. soon i'll be applying to schools and then i'll be living in a strange place and then i don't know what'll happen next. is my senior year supposed to feel like this? should i be so afraid to move on? maybe i'm not afraid, i'm just anticipating what's to come. i don't know...i feel like i've been a little lost in the whole "future" category. but it's good to be back. seeing friends that you don't see all summer, meeting new teachers, catching up with old ones, making fun of freshmen trying to find their way around campus...school's great! there are the downsides of the homework aspect of education, but i don't really mind homework. i am excited to learn new things and broaden my horizon-well, at least to how far Covina High School will let me broaden it. i can't wait to get new assignments, read Hamlet, look up new poems, be introduced to new authors and writers, etc., etc. school can be so amazing when you have a good attitude toward it. i may be leaving soon and high school will be over even sooner, but this year will be the best ever and screw all those other people who want to mess it up for me. this is it! this is my senior year! whoo...HERE WE GO!!!!

oh boy is it back

you got that right! it's only been two days and i'm already red! i've been "baking likes a toasted cheeser, it's so hot [there]!" i hate to sweat. i know it's supposed to make you cooler, but i don't feel a difference. i just feel the hot sun on my face being magnetized (if that's the right word) by like a thousand!!! and i can't wipe it off because i my hands are sticky from the stick tape on my drumsticks,my arms are already sweaty and dirty, and then my face and hands get even stickier than before!!!! it is so awful. and then i get baked. oh woe is me. my life sucks right? and my lips are chapped. oh, and not only do i have to put up with my own body malfunctions, i have to deal with the idiots in my section that make my life miserable. there is this one kid who makes it impossible for me to get a word in edgewise. i think it's just because he's mad that i'm his section leader and he thinks that he should be. stupid stupid stupid. i swear i am about to go insane!!! it shouldn't be this hard to be in charge of three other people...oh but it is.

at least i have my friends that make me feel better. my possie (however you spell it) is beginning to dwindle in numbers. well, there were only three of us, but now there are only two. however, two newbies have been added to the invite list. you see, almost all of the kids who are going to be juniors next year dropped out of band and so these two guys who were already sort of our friends need someone to hang out with. it's unofficial, but it's up in the air. i just hope they can make everything better.

it's back!!

i don't know how i feel about it, but band camp starts next week. i get to see my friends and play the drums: that's pretty cool. but i have to stand outside all day in the hot sun plotting the marching and sweating without so much as a water break. i think what i love about band is the friends. it might sound a little geeky, but some of these kids are the coolest!!! then again, some aren't...i won't name names (cough cough). but the kids are way cool and actually playing isn't that bad either. it's when the pressure starts coming to win. but you know what? i am going to do everything in my power to make this the best band season ever!!!!!