the end of the road...for now

okay...so i am officially graduated from HIGH SCHOOL!!!!! one of the most awesome feelings is knowing that you don't have to go back to that place where you had your most embarrassing moments, where people call you "MORMON" as if it were your first name, and where the cafeteria would sell it's food faster if it were just labeled "dog food." despite the horribleness of Covina High School, i enjoyed my time there. i am one of the few people who can leave that place and say, "well, that was fun, but i could use a change of scenery...like BYU-Hawaii." it's been great. i am extremely grateful for all the time that i had there and for all the friends i made and for everything i experienced. but i really cannot wait to go on to do better things than i ever could dream of if i were to stay here. look out world...HERE I COME!!!!

Into the Woods

one of the most amazing shows that i have ever performed in!!! i was the lead and (if i do say so myself) i was pretty awesome. i think my most memorable moment of my life is up there on stage singing my song "Moments in the Woods." i have never felt so happy after a performance. i definitely think that i was one of the strongest characters up there and i was able to identify with people. that is the mark of a good performer. IT WAS SO AMAZING!!! and i wish i could post the whole thing up here, but i can't. it should be on youtube soon, but we'll see if that really happens. if only i could put all of this into words...there's no way i'll be able to. i think only another performer could truly understand what i'm saying...or someone who has felt this way before...i don't know what i'm saying so beore i say something totally stupid, i'm going to stop. THANK YOU STEPHEN SONDHEIM!!!

No Subject

how does one label the way that i feel at this very moment? why give it a name? it won't make things feel better or make things right again-in fact, things might be made worse. it's crazy: ten minutes ago i was on top of the world. i had everything figured out and my life was going according to plan. then suddenly, the plan was being flushed down the toilet right before my eyes, my dreams slipping through my fingers, leaving me with fear. such fear that i had never experienced before. going from being in control to having my arms pinned at my sides. how will i get out of this? i know i'm smart enough to figure it all out, but right now i just want to be angry...if that is what i'm feeling now. i don't know what to think or what to do. i only wish that i had a back-up plan. why wasn't i good enough? or what made someone else better? why can't i receive an answer to these questions? it won't matter anyway. it's funny: the waiting place was my worst fear, and i was thinking i wouldn't have to face it until much later; but this waiting place is far worse than i had ever anticipated, and i have to face it now.