what do you do when your older sisters leave for college?

i am really bored...beyond words...i am about to fall asleep...at the computer...even though i just woke up an hour ago...because i am really bored...beyond words...i could use some help...but my sister is reading breaking dawn...and i don't want to disturb her...=(...stupid book...although i probably will end up reading it...because all of my sisters will...GAH I'M SO BORED!

what do i do now?

okay, so i am really sad at the present moment. my sisters and brother left for college this morning. nothing was weirder than having to witness my sister leave for school. mainly beacuse all i can think about is the fact that i am next! and even scarier, i might not go to BYU (hopefully i do , though). it is very quiet. normally by now we would be tackling each other for the best spot on the couch or something. it is scary now because i am the oldest-even though daniel is still here and sits on his butt while we do the work, but he doesn't count. i guess i'll just sit here sipping on my glass of rootbeer and let my mind wander into the deep abyss of loneliness and heartache. sigh...

hmmm...i don't really know what to make out about today. it was just like any other day at church. yesterday was weird. we went to the park to practice, but we didn't really even practice! we spent most of our time on the swings. that really made me upset. i was hoping we would work on 3rd movement, but we just ran through 1st a couple of times and played a few cadenses. ugh. now i wish i went to the beach with anne and brittany. whatever.

i finally finished my notes for the great gatsby. i really hated that book. i don't understand what's so great about it. all of the people are corrupt and stupid and they can all DIE (except for nick)! i just have to finish my other book and write my responses and i am done with my summer assignment. woo hoo!

i got my class schedule on friday. that was cool. if amanda is in my math class, then i'll have a buddy in all of my classes!

oh crap

so i am really mad at myself. my sisters and i were planning to go to the beach today, but the drumline planned to go to the park today to practice music. i forgot that we were going to the beach and agreed to go to practice. now i feel like such a jerk and my sisters are leaving on tuesday to go to school. =/ if only i remembered.

the downs of things that are "fun"

i am sooo BURNT! i just got back from an eight hour marching band practice and i am completely baked. well, not completely, but my feet and shoulders and knee pits are lobster red. it actually hurts and that is saying something. it normally doesn't hurt me to get burned so much, but i am hurting even when nothing rubs against those sensitive spots. i am so sore. we had to wear our drums today while marching which sucked so bad. i sometimes get sore without that dumb thing on my back. it wouldn't be so bad if we didn't have to go so far in so little steps, but we have to do that and crab march while doing it (that means we have to be on our toes and march sideways while keeping our shoulders square with the drum major). i almost puked too! that was fun. i was like hugging the trash can in the bandroom. the band really makes me angry as well. they are so slow. it took them forever to get first movement down. we have our plotting and all that stuff down. the only thing the drumline needs to do is put the music and plotting together. now that is what i'm scared of. and tackling third movement. i am so tired and i have to mow the lawn. NOT FUN!

tomorrow i have voices and registration for classes. i am so excited because i am taking drama this year! i didn't take it last year and i was miserable. i am never making that mistake again. although, i have to admit that i will miss second period band. band season we work on the show and cadenses (our tunes that we play at the games, rallies, etc.) and then the rest of the year we do homework. that's nice for people who have ap classes and the other lazy people. the drummers just hang out in the drum room and we play random games that would probably break our necks, but no accidents so far =)! and we listen to stupid ring tones and best of all, we play palace (or idiot for anne!). good times, but i am not willing to give up my first extra curricular priority for that. i don't know. i guess there are downs to everything (almost).

impatience is a virtue

you know how everyone says patience is a virtue? i hate that. you know why? because despite the fact that that is true, it takes just as much work to be impatient as it does to be patient. just like if you want to get an f in a class, you have to work for it because you have to commit to yourself that you are obligated NOT to do any work at all! i hate that patience is a virtue. why not occupy it w/ something useful like the ability to resist temptation or something. now that is a lot harder than practicing patience.

why do i suddenly bring this up, you may wonder. well, my letterman jacket is late. it was supposed to arrive here on thursday and it is now monday. i cant be waiting for forever! i hate it when sporting goods stores lie to you. or any store at that. honesty is a virtue just as well as patience!!!!

today

some days i feel overwhelmed. today was one of those days. i really don't know how to put it into words, but i am just drained physically and emotionally. i am a little bit tired, but i think i can make it through this blog. i sometimes just feel like...crap i can't put that into words either. it just has been crappy for a first day home after girl's camp. my eyes are dry and red and i want to sleep. i would say what's wrong, but then this turns into my diary full of complaints rather than a blog where you hear how boring my life is not. i am upset, but i'll get over it.

a depressing parting

today i have to go to girl's camp. i am not thrilled at all.partly because i am missing yet another week of marching band, but mostly because i am ditching my sister for a "spiritual experience". i don't even want to go. my parents are mostly making me and they've already paid so i can't bail out. whatever. whining won't do anything to get me out of it so i should just shut up and go. it should be fun, but since anne is here i really want to stay. whatever lauren, just suck it up.

my extra curricular life

today was my first day of band for the summer. where to begin, i have no idea. i will do my best not to go crazy; but i can't make any promises...

so today we started off like every other summer. we convened in the band room and our director mr. franco kinda gave us an idea of what to expect this year. then we went outside to go over basics of marching and standing at attention, etc. luckily, i didn't really have to go through all of that because i had voices practice. during which, we actually got stuff done. we practiced this song called fruitcake which everyone loves (except for those few people in the audience who are young and sane). it is sort of fun to sing, but i hate to listen to it. in any case, the few of us who are both in band and voices (besides the one who ditched voices [cough cough jenni davidson]) headed back to the basics session and formed a line w/ the rest of the band. we did some marching and all that stuff and then we had a break. we then broke up into sections and learned parade rest (which i had very conveniently forgotten). i thankfully had to leave a half an hour before lunch for my orthodontist appointment. i came back and enjoyed an awful lunch at jack in the box w/ amanda, julie, and katie. yeah, 99 cent tacos!

then we returned and did some more marching, but it was tricky because we had to carry our instruments. seriously, i was about to die w/ that stupid heavy snare drum on my back. then we competed against other sections for nothing and the stupid flutes won, those kiss-ups! anyway, franco said the drummers did pretty well, but our "drum instructor" eric flores laughed and i said, "well, we did pretty good considering you didn't teach us anything." i am not sure if he heard me, but i really wish he did. then we split up into sections and practiced music for the rest of the two hours.

speaking of eric flores...HE PISSES ME OFF!!!! excuse my french. he keeps changing his mind and stuff and he would fool around and get mad at us when we fooled around! he makes me so angry. he's just like a woman, but he's worse because he's a guy (i think) which makes him so much more complicated. i like him alright when we're outside of band because he is kinda stupid and easy to pick on; but inside band i really really really...do not like him!

well...

you know, i am not really sure what to write, but i need something to occupy my time with (i don't use the word bored, remember?). so yeah. i went to mormon night at dodger stadium. that was fun. the dodgers didn't win, though. stupid rockies. i get really angry when the dodgers don't win. well, not really angry, but a little upset. i am not too happy about the new guy, manny what's-his-name. he has dreadlocks and that is kinda weird to me. they have not been doing so hot recently (in my opinion) but it's better than the boston-yankee game i saw on the plane ride home. that was ridiculous. boston lost 10-3. grrrrrrrrrr...

i went driving today with my dad. this time it was legit. i am now legally driving. i can't necessarily drive on the street just yet, but it's a step up. i don't think i'll be able to drive to band tomorrow, but i will soon.

i have been so tired lately and i have no clue why. i was falling asleep in church and i feel really bad. i don't know, i think it might be from dog-sitting tina mccendrick's dog. i guess it's my fault since i don't have to go. i just go to keep brittany and anne company. so yeah, i guess that's it. i kinda have been b.s.ing this so i'll get out of your hair.