what do i do now?

okay, so i am really sad at the present moment. my sisters and brother left for college this morning. nothing was weirder than having to witness my sister leave for school. mainly beacuse all i can think about is the fact that i am next! and even scarier, i might not go to BYU (hopefully i do , though). it is very quiet. normally by now we would be tackling each other for the best spot on the couch or something. it is scary now because i am the oldest-even though daniel is still here and sits on his butt while we do the work, but he doesn't count. i guess i'll just sit here sipping on my glass of rootbeer and let my mind wander into the deep abyss of loneliness and heartache. sigh...