Sunday, January 4, 2009

heavy times

so i have this friend that i am not happy with. he's kind of an old friend. i've known him for a few years and i have to admit, he's a little bit too old for me to hang out with. well, he's been doing things that aren't so great and i am really P.O.ed at him for being so stupid. the thing that really bugs me is that he's going for my innocent friends. i don't think i have to reiterate how annoyed and disgusted i am with him. you know, i used to think he was a good kid. oh boy was i wrong. often times when i catch myself thinking about him, i start panting with rage because i just get so furious thinking about what is going on. i don't mean to sound like the huge protector or anything, but i have an obligation to my friends, right? not even that, i just have an obligation to do what's right...no matter how much it hurts me. i know i have every reason to hate this guy right now, but i really can't help but feel sorry for him. i think what bugs me the most is the fact that no one is going to say something, so i have to. i've never turned someone in before, so i'm not exactly sure how to do it. i'm not going to the cops seeing as the girls he's been fooling around with did so willingly and even thoug he is an adult and should know better, i can't help but see the kid in him and feel like i'm tossing him in juvie. so, i guess i have to go to the school and say something and they can go from there. it's just i can't have that on my conscience knowing that i could have done something. that doesn't keep me from feeling bad. i sometimes wonder, am i doing the right thing?

2 comments:

ANNwithanE said...

do what you think is right. remember that quote from the sandlot? "follow your heart, kid. you'll never go wrong." good luck.

Amanda said...

i know what you mean but as anne said if you follow your heart you will never go wrong and i believe it.i also believe that you will do the right thing because that is just who you are.love ya